so i am at home writing this i can barely believe that i have actually skied to the north pole.
a little secret, i bottled it totally, when we got the second call to fly to barneo the group left for the airport without me, i could not face the fears that had built up in me during the weeks wait, the hideous stories i had heard about all manner of nasties waiting for me on the ice, culminating in our aborted flight to barneo where we were turned back just before landing as the arctic ocean runway had cracked.
I waved the group good bye and went to pack. but following two calls, the advice of Ed and two dear friends and a call from the team i pulled myself together and went to join them at the airport. i am not ashamed to say i was bricking it, but for the support of the team i would not have gone and would therefore have missed one of the most incredible times of my life. lesson one there is nothing to fear but fear itself........
Ah ! Found "Little Secret" - somehow out of order in your blog history. Frankly, dear Cuz, understandable. Emotions build up in all of us at different times due to external influences that exert pressure on our abilities to operate. It is an enormous credit to you that you took the encouragement of those dear to you to knock the bogey man on the head and consign him to the trash. Your subsequent success and safe return is to be celebrated by us all. TonsaXXXXXs
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